For I have close my eyes to the reality of life and my head is trapped in a cloud of smoke. I once had a loving addiction for life it's self a natural high a feelings that I long for everyday that i open my eyes. But i now have another addiction that is unnatural and takes me to another place where there's no black and white or no right or wrong a place were I feel that I am free; free of all the social aspects that have been placed upon me as a man. So because of these struggles i have to deal with of a human nature i numb myself away from the pain and hope that one day i will be able to be on that natural high i lived and long for in my life once again.
